Ben

SICKY!

2007-07-02T12:22:00.000+08:00

aWEEKofTONandSICK

Went Ruth's house again.
Her house is like my other house.
Haha..
Watched "PursuitOfHappiness".
Funny thing, others who wants to watch movie FALL ASLEEP!
Left me and Faith to finish the show.
=)

Only realised that I wasn't home for almost a week yesterday.
Every morning when I woke up, 1st person I saw would be my friends.
COOL?
Haha..

So sick now..

School.. Movie! Birthday!

2007-06-28T11:50:00.000+08:00

27th June

Well, watched Mortuary before sleeping.
Morning left Ruth's house to school.
Sadly, only I had to go to school.
Reached school,feeling quite tired and sick but not that bad also.
Indeed, I'm tired.
Slept for the 1st meeting and 2nd meeting too.
YAWN*
Until 2nd breakout then I know the problem statement.
Haha.. =P

Went home at 3pm to change and put my things.
Then, met Faith at AMK HUB for movie ( Nancy Drew ).
Not bad, quite exciting, especially when someone got shock. =X
After movie, she met her friend working there for awhile.
Thought of shopping for a present for my friend.
Called my friends to see when and where they celebrating.
And just as I called, they just reached Marina South for steamboat for Chee Cheng's birthday.
Sent Faith home before joining my other friends.

" Guy should send Girl home after outing. "

It was more like a sharing session as they kept asking me things.
Chatting and eating away there.
Took train back home and remembered that my RJ wasn't done.
Sian 1/2 !

**爱的路上只有我和你**

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽叫我不能不看你
看不到你我就迷失了自己
好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽叫我不能不看你
看不到你我就迷失了自己
有时候你很调皮
总是让我着急
一颗心总是为你跳不停
只要一闭上眼睛
总有千百万个你
你的影子装满我的脑海里
不能够不想你也不能够忘记你
总是在梦里一直看到你
多想对你说句
我是真的爱你
对我的心不要再怀疑

好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你
好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

Over at Ruth's place..

2007-06-25T09:26:00.001+08:00

23th June

Morning went for water training and as usually, LATE again. Think I'm gonna do push-ups till mad.

Return by instalment I guess. Haha..

Skipped refreshment because I need to work. However, I didn't go to work. Think I am afraid of working as a promoter.

Well, went to Ruth's house for mahjiong. Left at around 9plus at night, but went back again for more mahjiong.

With Faith, Ruth, Melvin(BIG), Melissa.

Watched Arang with Faith and 'Dumbo' after watching 古惑仔 part 1. Haha.. The show wasn't that scary, but still someone hides behind Dumbo's ear.

Haha.. Quite tired at that time, falling asleep during the last part of Arang.

Slept quite "EARLY" and I can still remember the time, 6.44am.

24th June

Continued after my sleep, woke up to watch 古惑仔 part 5. And left Ruth's house at around 12plus. Went home taking a nap, feeling restless. And didn't go to work again. =P

Took a cab down to East Coast Park to roller-blade. Fun, though injuries here and there. =) Went home around midnight, bathed and fell asleep.

To someone:

不是不了解

而是关心

不是不相信

而是担心

** 别生气**

One Week Later..

2007-06-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

21st June

My Sister Bday!

Happy Birthday to My Dear Sister

..May Your Wishes Come True..

After one week without updating myself here, I felt so much better being with my friends. For the week, alot of stupid things happened. Though cannot really remember, but I know I am happy.

"Happiness is not what You had experience, but what You remember."

I felt better now, after the heavy blow in the Holiday. I didn't accept the way it had became but it was still the fact that I wasn't the one. Come to think of it, I kept giving myself fake hope, lying to myself that I can make it.

FOR WHAT?

No use, I was being heck cared. The thing I can only tell myself is I am now alone and whatever I do is just useless. But am I doing it right..?

So tired..

Sense of belonging isn't there anymore..

2007-06-14T05:41:00.000+08:00

12th June
**** Ministry Of Sound ( MOS ) ****

Met Sharon and Tiing in the train and reached Clarke Quay at 8.10pm to meet Yvonne. After that, met Celine at the Taxi Stand near MOS. Together with another 4 guys and Jian An. Met up Yy also. Dance a little here and there, nothing much. Don't seems to have mood, feeling rather worried.

After the party, felt even more heartbroken. Things getting out of hands, and there's no room in any conversation for this little guy here.

13th June

Went for my 1-star course and I'm LATE!!!

Reached at 10.20am thought I cannot join them already, but Billy saw me. Haha.. If not I wouldn't complete the course. =) Thanks Billy..

Again to Chinatown at night..

Went back to the same place for dessert, and this time they had rice balls. =) Well, I quite a number of things I thought about, and didn't feel like going home. Returned sleeping-bag to Tiing and chatted alittle, but she wasn't in the mood to chat. Well, what I felt from her was a line was drawn, THICK LINE, between her and me. The boundary of the two of us are getting wider.

只是我一个人在爱
心会更痛, 伤的更重
想挽回, 也只有我
我和你的感情
是不是只能到这里?
不清楚, 不知道
但我愿意一步一步
认识你

朋友

Just another day of Ah Ben's Life..

2007-06-12T04:33:00.000+08:00

..Alone..

This morning, Mom, sis and my little Aunt set off to Genting. No nagging for few day! But only few days. Haha.. Well, went out alone to Bugis and Orchard for a T-shirt but all branches sold out of Size 'S', then to Lakeside for Mahjiong. Until now lor.. Already 4.45am and it's still going on.

Simple life I'm having..

Nothing else for me to choose..

Is it gonna go on like this..?

Is it gonna be friends forever..?

Thinking makes me crazy..

I wanna be a lover..

Don't wanna be a friend..

Sad indeed.. But seems that the only thing I could do is to continue to be whoever I can be.. Stupid..? I not sure.. Not sure whether am I doing the right thing.. I'm now a masked man.. Wearing a mask on my face.. I never like the feeling.. It just hurts.. =(

3 days.. Haven't got time till now..

2007-06-10T07:59:00.000+08:00

7th June
Woke up to clear some of my stuff in my room, but not much being done as my mom nagged like HELL! I cannot stand the way she talk, it's like no sense lor.. As soon as I'm done with clearing up, met Celine and two other friends of her together, and didn't go for 音乐格斗场. Well, watched OCEAN 13 with them. Sean and Jie an if i did not forget the name of the two guys.

The show only clever people will understand and I do. Haha..
Oh ya.. Happy birthday to Sean ( Celine's Friend ). Do enjoy your birthday!
Nevertheless, Tomorrow will be the start of the 1-star course thingy at 9am at MacRitche Reservoir.

8th June
Took bus to MacRitche, but over-shot. 1st time taking Bus 167. The 1-star course thingy really isn't enjoyable, if it wasn't for the 1-star certificate, I would not even think of going there. Went to watch 林宇中 concert in school, he sings quite good. =) Billy, Bing Wen, Si Hong and me went for it.

Here's what we did after concert.

Billy drove us to Chinatown to have dinner and dessert, had " kok kok mee " and Sesame Paste. VERY NICE! Anyone wanna eat dessert can go there " 记得吃". After that, sent Si Hong home. On our way, talked about some guys thingy, which I thinking it's how guys like our age should already start planning. Then, he sent us to Yew Tee MRT Station and we went home ourselves.

9th June
Went for training, 10km! So tired, but it's worth it. Nothing much to say about training, it's like everytime the same things, train hard, push till limit. Haha.. Then, tio sunburn. After training activity, Big Melvin's House for Mahjiong Session. =) All night long..

** 我只跟我自己比 **

在此刻的我没有选择

曾经因为自己的笨

让她心痛

若能从新再来一次

我会好好珍惜我拥有的一切
不再让你伤心哭泣
对不起！

Everyone starts with their first time.. So do I.. My first post..

2007-06-07T02:58:00.000+08:00

My 1st Post

Today was quite a tired day. This morning came home from Shi min's house because of Mahjiong session yesterday midnight, plus the canoe training yesterday in the morning, no feeling is fake. WOW! At least it's worth it, no pain no gain. =) Mahjiong ended around 4am plus if I'm not wrong, slept at Shi min's house, together with Billy. Poor Tiing, came to see 4 people playing mahjiong, thought that she wouldn't had come as she looks tired. Anyway, after that Melvin(small) sent her home.

Planned to go sentosa with them, but felt the tiredness, so didn't go. Stay at home in the afternoon. My little Aunt, Mandy, who is only 9 or 10 years old, came over to stay until the 21st of June. And she really thinks that my singing CMI? Haha.. Well, Nevermind. I will improve in future, no worries. Haha.. Oh ya.. Went out at night to meet the those who went for sentosa trip for dinner, at the Hooters, sounds like Hookers. LOL! Most of all, on the our way back in the train, I played the most hair-standing Dare games ever. Can't say much. Confidential! Haha.. But I guess there's more to come in future playing these type of games.

This would be my 1st post in blogging and there will be more in future. =)

( Question asked to myself : Are u gonna give up..?)

( Answer : Never! )